We're leaving soon to see the parked Rose Parade floats in Pasadena.  I watched a PBS program on brain health before I went to bed last night. One of the prescriptions for a healthy brain is to notice what I love about my life more than what I don't love. As I lay in bed before drifting off to my usual night of broken, interrupted sleep I tried to find things I love about my life.  I can't elaborate much right now, but I didn't come up with much.  I vowed to wake up this morning, list five things I'm grateful for, and meditate on them throughout the day. I came up with two, and they're shaky.  Facebook was one, and this concerns me because this has nothing to do with my family. I love my children and in my heart I'm grateful, but I've got so many stressors in my life it's hard to come from a grateful place. One thing I'm clear about is that it is absolutely imparitive that I change my attitude and focus on the positive.  I  must make it a practice, especially during this difficult time.  Blessings might not be making themselves as clear as I'd like them to be, but that doesn't excuse me from seeking them out and finding them, and making the best of them.  I forfeited my right to be a negative, self loathing person when I had children.  Today I'll look for the light, seek out the blessings, and be the presence I'm needing in my life.